Cold Comfort
It is hard, some days, to not base my overall success or failure as a human being on my lack of having any shoulder to cry on, or arms to be held by, when the need arises. And by that I mean REAL shoulders, and REAL arms. I adore all you virtual people, but you all know it ain't the same thing. "Well, I have a great set of internet friends and lovers, so I'm no loser!"
And even if I were able to state that with no irony whatsoever, there simply is no substitute for touch when one needs comfort.
Anyway. In the interest of reaching out as I can and trying not to lambast myself for this being my only outlet, it's been kind of shit lately, and today I need a real, flesh-and-blood, compassionate human and I don't have one. Work sucks. I'm sick of it. I don't want to do it anymore. My attitude is now affecting things there; I am falling behind. I have a work project that I can't seem to even start much less finish and I suspect it is because the subject matter is too close to the bone and I can't handle it. I am overwhelmed, it's too much to take on, I feel too responsible. But now I've waited to long and it's too late to do anything about it and I'm screwed. And then today it got worse. My personal/social life is not evolving the way I want it to, either, or not at the speed I want it to, or some such. All connections with almost all people seem off; I feel like I will never fit anywhere or with anyone. The effort to keep trying seems entirely exhausting and futile. Each time I fail. I can't fall asleep, and yet all I seem to want to do is sleep. I've been saying I'm tired for two weeks straight now.
I know these things can turn around in only 24 hours and then everything seems different. It's happened to me lots of times. But damn, today just sucks and I want someone who cares to just hold me and tell me everything will be all right. And maybe just, you know, let me cry if I have to. Which I do.
And I hate, hate, hate that I just typed that I needed all that. Cash me in on some shame dividends, please.
So anyway, jesus, what fucking pathos. Let me get to the point. I'm posting this to ask you to help me out. Give me something to take my mind off it. Send me links to videos, music, anything absurd or entertaining. Tell me what you do on a day like this to keep you going. Tell me what you use to make you laugh or get your head right. No motivational-speaker-sounding crap, please. Just send me things that will amuse or delight (re-light?).
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I take 5 minutes, stop, picture myself COMPLETELY immersed in water, warm, swimming, and I just shut the brain OFF. It takes practice though. Barring that, I'll get a piece of good oldfashioned bubble gum and blow bubbles for a good 10 or 15 minutes. Splash in a puddle if it's rainy.
Go look at comics online, go through and clean out my mail, smell a flower. Bake. Baking is good. Kneading bread gets rid of stress in a good way.
And failing all that, I get a hug from SOMEONE, ANYONE, even if it's just a puppy at the pet store.
1. Posted by Darkneuro on April 11, 2007
I tried real real hard to find that scene in Animal House where Bluto Blutarsky (John Belushi) tries to cheer up that dorky freshman pledge.
Instead, I bring you the cafeteria scene:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p546m1FeNPQ
2. Posted by Hiromi on April 11, 2007
i once had a very dark day
during the course of which
i lost my way
in the cold and the dreary
hours ticking my eyes felt weary
work piled higher and higher
lost in the effort they would require
i almost missed the sound
admist my mope around
there at my cubicle wall
was artfuldodger, straight and tall
i knew it was him, he's such a dude
but there he was, totally nude
not totally, i have to admit
around his cock a pink bow, isn't?
i still did not smile, so far in a funk
it would take far more than just seeing his junk
that's when he started to twirl
his cock began to whirl
it whistled as it went around
and made a rather silly sound
and then he did something rather rash
a big pink balloon popped out of his ass
i tried to stop it, indeed i did
the start of a smile i tried to forbid
seeing that, he picked up his pace
and there appearing as if in space
was a message in the twirl of his cock
like a sharper image LED clock
the words there were few
all it said was, "fuck you"
at first i was shocked at the words of his staff
but then i couldn't help but laugh
it started out small deep down inside
but before long, it was something i could not hide
for this silly, silly man
his cock there spinning like a fan
had put it all out there, just for me
how could i not respond with glee
it was then that he opened his arms
and i stood exposed to his charms
he grabbed me then and gave me a hug
big and strong and snug
this was just what i needed most
in response to my most recent post
:)
i tried.
3. Posted by ArtfulDodger on April 11, 2007
Now I dress in rubber Godzilla suit and kick around the mess in my living room. I'll send you footage.
4. Posted by Hiromi on April 11, 2007
You guys rock. I totally feel better now.
DN: Why did I never think of bubble gum? GREAT idea. 'Cept, I was too busy at work to go out and get some. But next time... Either that, or since I'm trying to cut out sugar, soap bubbles. Both readily available at any 7-11 or pharmacy!
Hiromi: Classic scene. Mouthing the whole burger--brilliant. Though I've always wondered what a golf ball was doing in a cafeteria.
I remember the first time I saw that film, and I think it actually was my freshman year of college. Years later, I'd end up living where it was filmed.
Art: You take the fucking cake. I swear just your poem alone fixed things. Laughed my ass off.
Hiromi: As I did at reading that. You are the queen of the one-line understatement. Anyway, better watch out, biatch, I'm gonna put on my Mothra suit and go all lepidopteran on your ass.
I want the fucking footage. Now.
5. Posted by Miss Syl on April 11, 2007
k. I'll couldn't really come up with any one particular link, but there are so many out there.
Here: Just read a bit of my blog..(any one of them). I posted some funny stuff too! I just know I did.
I admit it: I'm a dork.
(Did that make you laugh?)
You could see me naked too..umm, (DON"T LAUGH..it's not that funny!)
xx,Res.(to think: I just had to enter "y" in the box)
6. Posted by Res on April 11, 2007
I know that cute animal pictures are a bit naff, but these are not just any animals, they are Shiba Inus.
http://www.illovich.com/yoshi/
7. Posted by Mu Ling on April 12, 2007
After Art, tere isn't much I can add. But if you want to, go read my first attempts at writing erotica. Art said I did well, which I take as high complement...
glad your doing better now Syl
8. Posted by Fusion on April 12, 2007
How's this?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCVLaS17Sik
Did it make you puke? Did it?
Hey, but you know Monkey Allan fancies you anyway, right?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OY81bXJyHBg
xx
9. Posted by nikki on April 12, 2007
Res: Naked dorkiness is always a cheerful thought.
Mu Ling: This one is my favorite. When cute attacks...in space!
Fusion: Thanks. Wait, are you saying your erotica would be laughable? Silly.
Nikki: Oh yes, but would Monkey Allan marry my snot?
Heh. I love that clip. I can always count on you to get it. :) All in all, though, I'd be even happier if you just sent me a Tim.
As to the Hippo, I think whomever made that video card cut off the last half of clip. I was waiting to see the hippo inflict major pain on the happy dog. You know something like that happens. Now THAT would have made me smile.
10. Posted by Miss Syl on April 12, 2007
:)
See! I told ya!!
11. Posted by Res on April 12, 2007
Hang in there. I know I'm a little late, but as a fine purveyor of distracting stuff, try these links:
http://omnipotentpoobah.blogspot.com/2007/04/randomness-wolfie-style.html
12. Posted by Omnipotent Poobah on April 12, 2007
Not silly. no. But distracting, take your mind somewhere else. Whew, have to clarify better in the future!
Hey OP, great stories in that link!
13. Posted by Fusion on April 12, 2007
Personaly, I just play with Darkneuro until she can take no more, and that usualy takes care of any emotional issues I have ;)
14. Posted by sic_un on April 12, 2007
Oooh, a visit from sic_un! I feel honored.
Well, same thing I asked on DN's blog about your tush...you loanin' her out, by any chance?
15. Posted by Miss Syl on April 12, 2007
You've probably seen this one before but it always cheers me up! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bRs6KWDsc0
Hope you feel better soon! :)
16. Posted by Unnur on April 13, 2007